So tonight, I watched P&P
At the end of the movie, when Mr. Darcy and Elizabeth kiss, I realized something....
(SN: the following took me a longgg time to write, but I hope God is glorified through the words, and that His name be honored)

I AM BETROTHED

I am a promised women. My fate secured from birth. My husband I do not know, have not seen, and I yet to even know his name. Yet my Father planned this all out, a union between to our two lives before time began. My betrothal signed when I surrendered my life to Christ, and closed with a Royal crest; Christ's blood as it's waxen seal.
My Love and I are perfect for one another in every way, my Father saw to that. And thought it's hard not knowing who he is, I take comfort in knowing that my Abba, my God, picked him out. I will know him in due time, just at the right age and point in life. Just at the time my Father set up for us to join together when He created us.
Though a betrothal seems hardly romantic, My Father has planned it out to be the romance of a life time. And though when I met my Love for the first time, I may not see him for who he is, love will blossom, and will be far more then what I could have imagined. Perfectly orchestrated by the creator of the universe... My Father, my Friend, my first, and forever perfect Love... my God.
And in that, knowing my God has beautifully designed every step of my romance, I will live my life simply as that- knowing I am betrothed. That my Father will bring my love to me in HIS timing. It may not be my timing, nor my loves timing, but it will be perfect timing. And when we meet, we will truly see the incredible plan that our Father has mapped out for us. And together, we will go forward, praising our Father's holy name. Better glorifying Christ together then we ever could apart.
This betrothal, my hope and future, I pray will be in the foremost of my mind, until the day I forever say "I do". I pray that with every young man I meet, and know, that instead of wondering "Could he be the one?", I simply say "I can't wait 'til my Father brings my love". Instead of always looking, keeping an eye out for my future husband, I pray that I will leave the time and place up to God, and keep my eyes on my Savior. For whats to happen if I'm looking around at other men when my Father finally points out the "one"? Would I miss him? Could I be so fixed on another, that my love walks right by me, and I never notice? God forbid! No, I'd much rather spend my time fixed on my Father. Using this time of single hood to get to know my Abba, my Daddy Father better. All every good Father wants is to spend time w/ his children. And God is no different. He wants my undivided attention. Not only so I can know Him better, and become more like Him. So when, that long awaited time comes, when my love finally arrives, I'll see him clear as day. All because my Father is pointing right at him.
So, betrothed. What a beautiful word. I am my loves, and he is mine. Even now, before we know one another. But, first and foremost, I am my God's, and it is only because of Him that I can have such a bright and beautiful future.

Being Single....

With the exception of a few guys, my life outside of family and friends is solitary. I like it this way, for now. I don't want to get hurt, or used. I'm waiting for a guy who is a Godly leader, and I know God has that man out there, I'm in no hurry to find him.
Although having a guy in my life right now would be great, I understand how detrimental this could be to my future marriage. Having a guy who is temporary, and his presence will only bring me heartache, is not my goal. I am willing to be patient, and give God my best right now, and for the rest of my life.

I know what I want, I won't settle. End of story.